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You see it is not that I don’t trust men when they are married it is just a tad odd that a high priest does magick on his own wife leaving her blind and then letting her go for a younger woman and another family. He not only lied to her he lied to others to get his status not corrupted. I was not a happy camper and so I burnt a candle for peace for Ibis for I knew her first and a candle to break all spells he may have put on her for he said she was blind and well I don’t kindly to man who has harmed a friend. On a level I am not sure what shall happen to her. I knew something was wrong and yet I did not want to say it. For I did not want it to be true I saw it when the three men did the halo reading. Do you say in the midst of men why? No you just let it go. Considering that Cisco is supposed to be a teacher however what does that show?

I cannot even talk to him for he literally hurt the one woman that helped me with my path.

I had a strange dream of a show like nature. 7 women creating the ideal man in their eyes somehow I was one of them and people thought me the strangest out of he bunch for I was for free thinking. As long as we had some stuff in common like spirituality and music I was fine with this. He was handsome don’t get me wrong deep blue eyes and longish brown hair but the man could cook and clean like a machine and well I was all for a man that would prefer to do that then me. So people watched us and noticed we grew a geniue love for one another where the others where just sex and that is what they wanted. Where we were more like a couple and enjoyed our company and yet never had sex once. Until one day he asked why is it the other couples are having sex and we are not? I asked him if he wanted to . I did not think to push an issue that to me was for mating not animalistic fun. I said I prefer to make love then have sex . Really sex is to procreate and we are not married for that. So he picked me up and said so you respect me enough that you don’t want just sex like them. I said yes I do. He smiled and we snuggled in bed and he held me tight and said here I thought there was something wrong with me. I looked at him and said uh no there is nothing wrong with you at all. I said this is a show to see what they can get out of us. We are lab rats in a house like atmosphere and nothing is sacred. So why not show them something that the others don’t have? He said what is that? Intelligence and companionship. He looked at me and smiled goofy like and said so you really came on here to fall in love huh? I said yes for is that not what mating is all about? To enjoy the journey and be with someone you love? H e snickered and said yes it is. He then seduced me and I woke up kissing a dream.

So much for reality not even close. My teacher in IFA left my other teacher and I was s dumb founded by this I was not too happy with the outcome. I asked myself what do I say to them? How do I say it to them and what should I do to make the teacher understand leaving her and trying to ruin her name was just wrong. I know it is not my place and I know that I should not say anything but I am thinking of saying that I am disappointed and if he cannot be faithful in his marriage then how can he be faithful in his religion? Sighs I am stupidifed.

This is like a summer breeze when it is so hot and humid you are dying for rain. My soul really needed the house cleansing more than I knew.. I did the cleansing bath and ritual that was told to me to do

Made bath for self with basil, lavender, rosemary, rose, holy water ,Florida water, daisies and a carnations

Cleansed the house with the herbal bath and then took it to a new level and bathed me the dog and the cat not at the same time but most definitely we all smell the same.

I fell asleep and felt tired and slept for four hours. Very deep and peaceful!

I dreampt of nothing but a field and forests and walking around the woods and smiling. I have not done that since I was in NY so that was truly cool too

Well I saw Ogun once the cleansing began . It was a flash but none the less I saw him. Then I saw a white horse which means death leaving. Felt warm fuzzies and got a reading . He said I am innocent but take on others sins. I was in shock and said nothing about Marilyn. You cannot imagine that I am taking on her burdens and I cannot. I have enough to bare and I stay away from people on purpose. I am grateful that they came over and cleansed the house my animals and me.

Cisco mentioned that Ogun likes animals cat and dogs. I looked at him and said I cannot sacrifice my animals and I cannot do that. If I wanted to become a priest which I cannot but I can be positively blessed by him. Then find out whom my mother is. My halo is Ogun and my when blessed I can find this mystery out. Both the priest and priestess looked around my home and asked why I have separated my home with alters all over the house? I said I felt that each area needed one.

They looked at my bedroom and said you know you can remove them so you can have sex. I said uh no. Sex is not important, my spirituality is. I live and breathe it they saw it and realized that I am unique. I had to think why it was supposed to be so important for me to have sex and they looked at me and realized that I have more books and movies and music then anything and well it was unique. I am a monk in a sense. He looked at me and saw that I was serious. I would prefer to be alone but am not alone. I can talk about it sex like any hormone bound body . I choose to live in peace and balance . Odd I guess :)

Beshert is a Yiddish term that expresses how soul mates are "meant to be together."



Soulmate-ism?







Is there really such a thing for finding the one. I was thinking about it last night and well I found myself wondering what the heck truly does it mean?



Then researching many see it a one they love for ever



Forever is a very long time and I can think that it would get boring if you were tied together forever.



I guess I ponder this today for I have time on my hands and someone believes she is suited for a man at work that is a leech and a stalker type. He thinks he can beguile you with words of wisdom or his laughter or his jokes that really are not funny. Then you look at how happy she is and you wonder what the hell it is? Love being blind per say or truly the soul mate of a life time. She looked and me and asked my opinion. I said I was not the one to say hey yah perfect for you. I did not want to damper the relationship so I said if he makes you happy then cool. She looked at me and probed . She said but what do you think of him. I said my opinion means nothing if you are happy. SO leave it at that. For recently I had an outabout with another friend that was a bit unnerved at what I said to her when I said go with your gut. So here she is looking at me and she said why wont you say like it is? I said for I almost lost a friendship over something similar and I am not the one who is marrying him. She looked at me and asked again at lunch where the women knew me better and knew I was blunt and to the point. I said if he makes you happy that should be the only thing that matters. She said you are not answering the question. She repeated the question and I was like hell I already lost a set of friends over one opinion why not another.

I said he is a leech and he has stalker written all over him. She looked at me and the girls in the lunch room watched for they saw me in rare form.

He calls you three times a day to see if you are work. Or on the way home from work. If you are not home at a certain time he goes hunting for you. He makes himself seem funny and well his jokes are really icky and not worth while to bother to laugh at. He does not have a job he is mooching off you and well you are allowing him to stay with you on top of not having a job. I said I know the economy sucks here but he can get a part time one hell I could so what really is his issue with providing his share. He will bring you down and he is not worthy of your love. Is that what you wanted to hear?



She looked at me in shock and the women who watched knew I was right for she has been struggling for a year and this man has no job. They met on the internet and the fact is she lovessssssssssss him since they first met meaning cybered…. But love don’t pay the bills. Nor does she really feel loved. She just feels needed. So she takes care of this man and she claims she lovessssssssss him. I said well good for you. You love him and you are happy and that is all that matters… She said so why are you not happy for me? I said I am . She asked but you are not. You just said you think him icky. I said if he was for me it would be out the door I don’t like couch corpses and I had my toys but not mates for that. Looked at the women snickering and looking at her like she is a fool. The women in back agreed with me and were not truly happy for her. They were worried for her. SO Yes yet again I was blunt and to the point. Eyebrow raised



Why the heck do people ask me stupid questions if they see it my face to leave it aloneeeeeeeeee ? I mean come on now. Even the women in the break room knew I was right. And I have had experience with leeches and I know that is all that man wants. To suck off her till he cannot do anything more. Hell he wants to marry her and does not even have a ring for he does not even do day labor. So how the heck are they going to get married when she is paying for it all?

Last CD / DVD you bought? cd (dont laugh) inxs greats dvd push

If you wrote a book, what would it be called? How to get out of Hell and move on...

A food you dislike? fish

What posters were on your wall as a child? guns and roses, duran duran, the cure yeah weird mix.. lol

Favourite TV show? dont watch tv makes the brain rot.

If you could take 3 things to a desert island, what would they be? my cat my dog and alot of food that is easily stored with out rotting

Worst film you have seen? club vampire

Your favourite movie quote? You are a ball juggling thunder cunt and wow you are jealous of mine. pricless..

used it once they looked at me like I was nuts I said I had imaginary ones :)

Last band / artist you saw live? Zombie

Favourite computer game? vampire wars

First CD / record you will admit to buying? tears for fears record my sister took my damn collect lol

Favourite film? hmm nighmare before christmas

What is your all time favourite song? in your eyes by peter gabriel

A celebrity you dislike? all of them

Three things not many people know about you?

I hate everyone equally until proven wrong and than you are loved for life if proven wrong..

I love zucchini soup

motto in life never given in and never give up

If someone were to make a film about your life, who would you want to play the part of you? can the person be dead? Betty davis loved her acting..

As a child what did you want to be when you grew up? a better mother than my mother

What irritates you the most? When a person curses who is a friend for they think getting mad and being disrepectful is a way to get through to me. If it is a stranger I will laugh at it and show them that. A friend doing that you will loose not only my respect you will loose a friend that would have you back with all your judgements.

What quality do you admire most in a person? honesty

Do you have any phobias? palmetto bugs they fly and they are huge coachroaches that dont die with a shoe they just look at you funny..

What makes you cringe? a person hurting an animal

Name three things you have in your fridge?

roast beef , zucchii soup and oj

If you were prime minister/president for a day, what law would you pass? Give the power back to the people for the government is corrupt

If you had to sing karaoke, what song would you choose? I am a blonde

If you were stuck in an elevator who would you wish to be stuck with? my man

If you could meet any famous person from history, who would it be? Jesus to ask him why he took the kabblah and created a faith that people fight over now...

If you went into a newsagents with £1/$1, what would you buy? the new york times

What 3 words best describe you? sincere honest blunt

If you could have a super power for the day, what would it be? creating world peace all over the world...

Whats the most embarrassing thing you've ever worn? in the 60's a madonna outfit my god what was I thinking???

If you had to pick a reality show to take part in, what would it be? uh none of them my life does not have to be out there...

What fancy dress outfit would you pick to wear at a party? depends on what the occasion is a ball gown if it is traditional, if it is a party a black dress, if in sca rein ware

Where do you see yourself in 5 years time? Italy

Who is your role model? Omi my grandmother she was the bestest...

What is the meaning of life?

To enjoy what your life has given you and even if you find potholes and fall get up and move on it is better to enjoy life than dwell on the past.





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